[New Beginnings, Fresh Start!]

Starting January 3rd I will be back with a vengence and a 6 month to the perfect body for the wedding plan! Tune in for the show =)

[lalalala]

I miss my friend!!!

And I'm sick of being sick!!!

And i spent 800 dollars on my husband yesterday... which means i'm golden for ATLEAST a year!

[susghbsnrt]

Holy crap my eye hurts.. pain pill and bed is exactly what i'm doing right now!!! Tomorrow is a busy busy day for me!

[just shoot me now!]

4 teeth coming in, no husband, and a toddler who has been SCREAMING for her dad all week long.. when he is home he is sleeping and she sits outside our door kicking and screaming and throwing the biggest fit for hours.. i'm exhausted and ready for this week to end!!!

[crap update]

It's late and I'm tired... Grandma Nancy's surgery as of right now is cancelled so I'm gonna go get a few hours of sleep in before Jeff comes home and wakes us up and then I have to deal with surgery or no surgery!

[i have a VERY awake child at the moment]

This picture was of my family a little under a year ago (about 11 months ago) and everyone is wearing the same size clothing they did a year ago (yes part of that is this random BC weight but thats a whole different story).. I had expected a change by now and I just haven't been doing it.. its no ones fault but my own! I have all these ambitions but when push comes to shove they ALL fell apart and I REFUSE to allow this to happen.. next years photos WILL be different!!! I demand it for myself and for my family!!!

I feel so weighed down by the foods I've been eating lately so for the next 2 days (Thursday and Friday) I am eating nothing but fruits and veggies and I am drinking nothing but water in large doses!!! Hopefully then i can kick this birth control bloat enough to FINALLY retire the pair of pants I'm wearing in this picture!!!! I was out of them before the bloat set in so I technically DID lose weight in a year and down a pant size but its not enough!

I also want to get myself on a schedule schedule! I plan to buy a timer and have intervals of time that i get stuff done! Maybe if I have something moving me along it will make it easier to follow through!

Tomorrow's goal

Wake up at 8:30 (normally I wake up before this but to be out of bed and started my actual day at 8:30! ...so 30 minutes or so to put around and wake wake up!) and get fully dressed!!!

9 have Adalynn fed

9-9:30 cut up some fruit for a smoothie to enjoy at the 9:30 time frame

9:30-10:30 internet stuff (grandma nancy goes in for surgery prep tomorrow surgery on friday!)

10:30-11 dishes

11-12 catch up on anything that took longer then i expected and or free hour yay lol!

12-1 lunch

1 Adalynn down for nap, clean living room

so i know that looks pretty basic but i'm a zombie in the morning and by the time i look over its lunch and nap time and i haven't had a thing to eat and haven't done anything so i'm hoping with just getting this out there that i actually get it done! And I also tend to be more active when I wake up and put on my tennis shoes so thats my goal! As soon as i wake up get up and dressed!!!

[i love my giant fish!!!!]

This is what happens when your friends move away to a new Army post! They give you there body pillow because you are obsessed with!!! This guy i happen to call him Mr. Fooshie and YES in case you were wondering he IS a giant fish pillow! =)

On that note we had to say goodbye to a really really amazing friend today and I'm not exactly handling it! Plus with this whole birth control bloat I'm basically dying!!! It's 7:48pm and in 12 minutes after I was a few dishes I am passing out! Jeff is working tonight and overnight for the next week so I don't plan on getting my exercise bike time because I'm now actually needed at bath time but tomorrow I plan to walk 3000 steps according to my pediometer which is honestly about 1000 more then i normally do! So hopefully that makes up for my lack of biking! I also plan to do some shake weight.. i hate that thing but hey i'll take the looking ridiculous for my arms to tone up!

[catch a grenade for love]

Today was suppose to be 100% outside day.. well that didn't turn out exactly as planned... It was so nasty out full of rain and crud!!!! But did that stop us from going outside completely!? of course not!!!! We had ribs that needed BBQ'ed! .. yes we are THOSE type of people lol!!! I was looking forward to my ribs and YUMMMYYYY!!!! they literally melted in my mouth! oh so delicious!!! And with watermelon and potato salad!! Dinner could NOT have been any better!!!

But on a good note I also must tell you about the bad.. Tomorrow we say goodbye to a very dear friend as her and her family move to there new army post =( Tis the way of the army... I'm just not excited about having to say goodbye to not only 1 but 3 of my close friends within the next couple weeks! =(

Also I am here to blog about how I am so completely stuffed that i did not work out on my exercise bike tonight! There was no way with dinner and me medicated out that i would be able to do it today and this is an excuse but not an excuse.. i just can't push myself today.. with everything its just an off day! but i refuse to allow tomorrow to be another off day.. it doesn't work like that.. i'm not losing momentum i'm just reharnessing it for tomorrow!

[SERIOUSLY! it's a picture of ME!]

/gasp! A picture of mwah!? Si!!!! Occasionally I DO take pictures of myself! SHOCKER! I know =)

So today went okay.. my eye is KILLING me but i try not to complain about it that much because I feel like I'm a broken record!!!

AND *drum roll*

2.869 miles in

18 minutes 33 seconds

I still hate bath time.. isn't this suppose to get better?!

This kid makes my heart sing!!! I got my new headbands in the mail today =) The one she is wearing is black/hot pink and I also got a brown/white with a jewel on one (that i am currently sporting!) and a black/red one that look AMAZING!!!! And I got all 3 for 18 dollars shipped!!! Not too shabby =) I also got my replacement Zoya in Trixie in the mail today so in a few minutes I'm going to be rocking out to silver nail polish! =) I can't wait!!!

On a bad note though today we were suppose to go on a river boat cruise but unfortanently due to my eye issues we had to cancel so we gave our tickets to good friends of ours and I hope they enjoy an amazing evening out!!! While they were enjoying our places on the boat I was at hoping chopping up an onion for our stir fry dinner (that was delicious, thank you Jeff!!!) and it irritated my eye so badly in all of 30 seconds that I almost ended up hospitalized.. talk about RIDICULOUS amounts of drama over my stupid stupid eye! If you learn ANYTHING from this blog its that eyes are the worst thing known to man! okay.. i might be just a teensy bit dramatic with that statement but if i'm going to live my own personal soap opera i better make it worth the ratings =P

So we did some running around today and ended up at the grocery store buying things for monday's BBQ extravagansa!!!! .. Ribs! slow cooked all day on the grill!!! YUM! nothing better in the world then that!!! .. we also had to pick up some things that we had run out of to make our homemade bbq sauce.. yes we are HARDCORE BBQ'ers! anddddd yay red wine vinegar was on sale for 2 for 4 dollars instead of 3.59 a bottle! MEGA score! .. and then we got 4 cases of Dr. Pepper for 9 dollars instead of 2 for 9 which is the regular! another SCORE! We drink about 1 soda a day... scratch that I'd be lying if i said that.. NORMALLY I drink 1 soda a day but with my eye and me feeling like crap and needing sugary pick me ups because I have ABSOLUTELY ZERO appetite I drink more like 2 a day! which still is SO much better then the soda 24/7 that i WAS drinking a year ago! I tried going completely without and when I'm feeling good I frequently go 3 or 4 days without drinking one but I have to have them around for occasional special treats! and since i'm not a chocolate/sweet type person i think its a fair trade off as a "snack" as long as i treat it as a rare special treat!!!

So that gets me to the magical question.. did i or did i not stick with my workout day 2? YES I DID!!!! I was on the bike for 19:29 LONG minutes!!! at like :23 seconds I was DONE! but i kept going and BOY did i SWEAT! But I went for 2.791 miles! The WHOLE time I was just staring down the clock sweating my behind off and just prayer for Jeff to say those magic words "Wash your belly.. rub the soap on your belly" OH THANK YOU!!! then "close your eyes" I could have fainted in delight!!! I don't know if its the pain pill i took right before working out (due to the onion fiasco) or what but today i did sooooo much less but it was soooo more of a work out! sweat sweat sweat and a dying girl! ... but now that it's done and over with I feel a heck of a lot better =)

Day 2 SUCCESS!!!

Day 3 ???? Someone may need to help me get out of bed LOL!!!

[birthdays are always fun!]

Yesterday was my birthday and I am now 23 years OLD! It's official according to my amazing friends Sarah, Sam, and Carol Lyn that once you reach 23 you qualify as being old! Thanks ladies =)

In my new found oldness I have decided that by the time I am 25 I am going to be 150 pounds! Which gives me 2 years to lose 150 pounds! Doable? YES! I think it should take less time but I am wanting to make lifestyle changes and I'm worried that if i set to short a goal and fail again that I will just go back to old ways! So once again I'm starting up blogging.. yes i know i've been slacking and failing at this for as long as i can remember but this time its different.. its getting to difficult for me to move anymore and my dad is dying due to weight related things.. all these things combined plus 2 seperate weddings that I will be involved with are more then enough to really really activate my life!

So 2 years broken down

2 years = 75 pounds a year

24 months = 6.25 pounds a month

104 weeks = .69 pounds a week

Totally doable!

I plan to do my bicycle while Jeff is bathing Adalynn because I plan times for this and it ALWAYS without fails falls through! SO new time and Jeff is on board with it!! Today I went 5 miles in 32 minutes and 12 seconds and by mile 1 i was making excuses to stop and making excuses in my brain why tomorrow I shouldn't do it.. I HATE that I'm constantly making excuses but I kept telling myself as long as Jeff and Adalynn are getting there bath on I WILL be on this bike even if I kill myself in the process!!! And i told Jeff I plan to do it every day!!! Whether its a quick bath because its running late or one of her hour long baths I will NOT stop until they are in the bedroom ready for me to brush her hair! ... Heaven help me because this is going to SUCK!

[spaghetti never gets old]

I can't think of anything I love more in the world then my daughter covered in bright orange!

[swimming is the definition of summer]

Holy Crap its been forever and a half since I've been here!!!! My fault!!! It's just been crazy with Jeff coming home but I'm back and back for good!!!

This picture is from when we went to California to visit Jeff's family.. poor thing got sand in her eye in a bad way and she couldn't open her eye at all.. it was horrible and she was MISERABLE!

[Peeps make the world go round!]

Adalynn grabbed my peeps and tried to break into the package and i'm a peeps fan but not a peeps fanatic like my husband is!!! I was determined to eat my pack of peeps without any help from other people since Jeff ALWAYS steals atleast half of mine because he eats his within about 30 seconds of waking up Easter morning! ... but I gave in and shared =)

[grumpy kids suck!]

I have about 35 pictures of Adalynn throwing the biggest temper tantrum because I told her no to licking me.. mean mother that I am!!! I know!!! But this is my big bright blue eyed baby.. eating some spinach and apple green puffs!

drank another 12 oz today.. i think i lost this week lol!!! The weekend its on!!! I am also going to update on what i plan on eating the day before and that is what i'll eat! No straying from that!!! .. and on Tuesday I am going grocery shopping so in the next couple days you will see my dinner menu for the next week!

[...like TOTALLY!]

So we got admitted to the hospital so TOTALLY not my fault that I haven't been blogging and also totally not my fault that I haven't been keeping up on my water intake!!!! ... so far this week i've done 12oz =( no bueno!!!! TOMORROW .. as long as we don't get REadmitted to the hospital I fully intend to down ATLEAST 100oz!!!! Totally doable!!! .... i said totally WAY to much in this post.. please forgive me!

[normal bed time = normal wake up time!]

oh and i should also add that i plan to eat breakfast atleast 3 times this week!!!!

[one day at a time!]

I have been home all weekend with a sick little girl! (well for almost 2 weeks now I've barely left my house!) And I am going RESTLESS!!!! It is SOOOOOOOOOOOO boring being stuck in a house!!! Before the past couple months I never wanted to leave my house but now that the weather is AMAZING outside all I want to do is get out of this hell hole!!!!

GOALS FOR THIS WEEK: (Monday-Friday!)

100oz of water DAILY! (in a contest so minimum of 100oz daily!!!)

20 miles on my bike! whether its 1 mile at a time or all 20 at once i WILL get it done before 9pm on Friday!

10 minutes a day using my shake weight! (which will be in the form of 1 minute every hour for 10 hours!)

my more "long term" goal is that June 3rd to be at 290! I should have been at that months ago but I haven't been.. .and I'm disappointed in myself! So I'm now striving for that goal!!! I also FULLY intend to be 265 on my birthday (September 1st) I need to get over this hump I've hit! I eat better then 90% of the people I know! I just need to move more!!!! Which is easier said then done I know!!! BUT it's needed!!!

[oh no!]

oh my blog! I've missed you so much!!! I promise after dinner and after I put my loud child to sleep that I will be back to talk to you for a quick moment!!!!

<---- this chick is down 2 pounds <---- this chick is still up from what she should be but still happy =)

[marissa will be here tomorrow!!!!!!!!!]

I just walked 2529 steps on my walk it out! on the wii!!! I am looking forward to mixing it up and getting back into the funk of working out because i have been SLACKING!

[happy my brother day!]

I didn't take any pictures of st patrick's day.. i've just been miserable all day!

Yesterday total number of steps was 2400

total number of bottles of water .. ? ... i don't think i finished 1.. i drank lots of alcohol.. but i dont think any water =(

Total total number of steps (at 8:30.. still have lots of cleaning to do) : 5645 and most of that was hung over walking.. not fun!

total number of bottles of water .. 0.. i feel like crap and know i need to saturate myself with water! .. i just haven't been home!

Today was the St. Patrick's Day parade and we got there late and had to park MILES away from the parade and I just couldn't keep up with the thin fit ladies doing a normal pace.. It REALLY hit home for me just how disgusting and out of shape i've become! I sat on a bench and talked to a lady about it and she loved on me and told me that I was absolutely beautiful and it might take me 50 stops to get somewhere but she believed in me.. I left that bench with a new resolve!! It might take me longer but I'm gonna get to my weight goal and i'm going to be healthy!!! I can't wait to enjoy outside tomorrow!!! I plan to walk with Adalynn .. I want to see how far down the path 1000 steps are because then the return trip it will be another 1000 .. and that might be all the walking I can get done tomorrow.. but i'm going to get it done! and i might have to stop 50 times between here and step 1000 but i'll get there!

[Listerine in the mail today!!!]

Today I had SUCH a blast!!! I went out with Lessie and Gabe! We went shopping and i bought Adalynn ANOTHER St. Patrick's Day shirt.. I KNOW she didn't need it but seriously how can you help it? They just scream "buy me" After we went shopping we came back to my house and played outside in the kiddie pool! Gabe wasn't too keen on getting wet but Adalynn had a blast =) I can't wait until Thursday so we can go swimming again!!!! We would go tomorrow but we have a food handlers class.. boring!

DAILY STEPS: 5060!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <------------ DO YOU SEE THAT NUMBER!!!!!!! i did AMAZING today!!!

#of water bottles: 1 (not so great with the water lol!)

[Monday's are all about ME!]

CHANGING MY BLOG UP A BIT!

Weigh in today was okay.. I lost .8!!!!! still up from what i should be BUT its still a negative instead of a positive!!!!!!! I am so proud of myself!!! I've been eating like CRAP! So this week I WILL be eating better!!!

I also got my pedometer in the mail today!!! I only got it half way thru the day so tomorrow I hope to atleast double the number because that would be a whole day!! I also plan to work up to 10,000 steps every day! and my March goal is that by the 31st I'm ATLEAST doing 5,000 steps a day!

I also plan on informing you of how many water bottles i drink! It doesn't "count" unless I drink a whole water bottle which is 24oz! I plan on drinking 6 a day but started late today!!

And I will be informing you all of my weigh ins which are Monday's and Friday's!!!

I will also be blogging a little more about me and what we did that day! I don't do much.. I'm pretty boring but I'm still a person and what I say and do matters to me =)

And... I will still include some type of picture because you just can't get tired of seeing my adorable little munchkin!!!

DAILY STEPS: 1001

# OF WATER BOTTLES: 1

[in honor of celebrity apprentice tonight]

money money money! MOOONNNEEYYYY!!!

[my grandpa!!!!]

I don't know about you ladies but this is what a stud looks like!!! He is basically (and will forever be) the most handsome, wonderful man I know!!! He has been married for about 26 (?) years to the most beautiful woman I know and he STILL opens the door for her!!! I swear that lady doesn't know how to open a car door because its literally been so long since she's had to do it herself =) They make my heart smile =)

[my leg itches]

We are a VERY scholarly type of household!! =)

[therapy tomorrow!]

I have a little hamball =) She's so easy to just fall in love with!!!

[survivor!]

1 of 3 coming from Iraq!

[starving!]

my poor little sick feverish baby =( no bueno!!!

Mondays are about ME!

Miles : 16.75

Food : Meh.

This week: atleast 25 miles! if not tar and feather me!

[bed time for someone!!!]

Adalynn up WAY past her bedtime playing with an authentic Cancun drum that her uncle Kenny got her when he got to go to Cancun.. If i had a choice i'd rather go on the vacation instead lol!!!

and yes her nose is a little sunburnt!

[stop eating tissue please]

Poor baby has been in pajama's ALL day long and around 7pm they were anything but clean!!! Plus this is right after dinner so she's even more of a mess with food everywhere lol!!!

[exhausted]

After Adalynn's shots the poor little girl fell asleep on the floor.. one minute she was tucking in her stuffed pig and the next minute dead silence and a sleeping baby!!

[oh Royal Pains.. I < 3 thee]

"Adalynn, do a cheesy face for mommy" ...ahhh my hot mess of a daughter = love

[for Maddie]

Run Free dear sweet Maddie!! My thoughts are with your family!!

[mmmm jello!]

The first picture was taken mid November and the second picture was taken today.... I didn't realize her hair had grown SO much!!!! in the first picture you can still see all of her little bald spots lol!!! I can't believe that was just a few short months ago!

[my brother in law got into ANOTHER car accident..]

This little girl LOVES the new placement of the computer desk because its closer and easier for

her to climb up onto the desk.. me.. not so much loving that little tidbit!!! I love how she just KNOWS she is in trouble!!!

[bed time?]

I know this picture is from yesterday.. but my little pumpkin princess may have either fifths disease or scarlet fever so I'm a little preoccupied to take a picture at this very moment.. i apologize!

[Maybe I'll mop on monday...]

I love this kid!!! But oh my goodness I need her to plump up just a wee bit!!! Her shorts are being held up with some safety pins because they just fall right off of her! .. plus this is the smallest shirt that she got when i bought shirts.. the rest look like dresses!!! Poor baby lol!!! I bought ALL 18 month stuff for summer and 100% of it doesn't fit!

[i need to mop...]

Playing outside makes for an awfully hungry baby!!! I love watching my poor toothless kid trying to eat gummies =) Poor kid lol!!! But today she FINALLY cut her 3rd bottom tooth =) I'm so proud of my little chunky butt =)

[shopping sure wears out my debit card]

I have a friend who says Adalynn is always wearing polka dots.. I've discovered that this is extremely true.. But seriously look at this rain coat we just bought! It was the ONLY one and it was her size AND it matches her new shirt PERFECTLY! =)

[cleaning away my sorrows]

This is a picture of my wedding day obviously =) .... actually.. i'll tell you a little secret [it's photoshopped]

[sketti for din din]

I don't know what to tell you? My kid is absolutely 100% the most stylish little diva that there could possibly be =) And I love every ounce of her!!! ..

[off to start dinner... YUMMY!]

I'm willing to share my Valentine with anyone out there who needs one since well.. to be honest.. she IS the cutest =)

[removing nail polish takes forever]

Poor kiddo woke up from her nap and wanted to cuddle!!! She NEVER wants to cuddle!!! So we cuddled up together for about 45 minutes [yes, i did die and go to heaven] and then she wanted me to get up and wanted my chair.. So i made her up a little cuddly spot on my chair and made her a cheese quesadilla and she was in love =)

[potato salad makes my heart sing!]

We went from happy go lucky and coloring and laughing to ...

falling asleep at dinner.. someone had a little too much fun and not enough nap today =)

[off to clean... again]

I'm so emotionally DONE with this deployment.. I'm so done with Valentine's day.. I'm so done with all things that involve this guy not being on that bed tonight!!! But I also adore how pathetic he looks sleeping.. CLEARLY he shows signs of pitching for the other team! [giggle]

[stupid memphis!!!]

That's a condom on my head... just a regular sized condom.. and guys try to say they are too big for regular condoms... SOOOOO not true!

[i could sleep for days...]

My completely healthy kid according to the doctor! .. Notice how her hair is soaked to her head from her excessive sweating plus the fact that she's cuddled up under a blanket and not wanting to move or play at all... Yup! my healthy healthy kid.. who as I'm typing this just coughed and then sneezed a big old snot ball of mucus!!! =) So glad to have such a wonderfully healthy child =)

[dr. appointment tomorrow]

This is how adorable and cute my darling daughter looked today.. We got up and got dressed and got "done up" .. and daddy didn't show up for our skype date =( lame!

[i define my life thru accoustic songs]

My poor sick kid is starting to get better! Her throat still sounds like something died in it half of the time but her appetite came back today with a bit of a vengence! This is her eating her dinner which consisted of a container of applesauce, 2 cups of cheerioes, an individual mac n cheese cup! [mommy used some delicious 'burning a hole in my throat' salsa so the little one needed a more suitable option tonight!] And if you were wondering YES! she IS still in her pj's! Well.. Atleast her pj top!

[chewed on cardboard]

We were being green and using our paper grocery bags for painting purposes.. the top fit better until Adalynn started playing with it! Next time i'm gonna try something a little different so it more "toddler efficient"!!!