[lalalala]

I miss my friend!!!

And I'm sick of being sick!!!

And i spent 800 dollars on my husband yesterday... which means i'm golden for ATLEAST a year!

[susghbsnrt]

Holy crap my eye hurts.. pain pill and bed is exactly what i'm doing right now!!! Tomorrow is a busy busy day for me!

[just shoot me now!]

4 teeth coming in, no husband, and a toddler who has been SCREAMING for her dad all week long.. when he is home he is sleeping and she sits outside our door kicking and screaming and throwing the biggest fit for hours.. i'm exhausted and ready for this week to end!!!

[crap update]

It's late and I'm tired... Grandma Nancy's surgery as of right now is cancelled so I'm gonna go get a few hours of sleep in before Jeff comes home and wakes us up and then I have to deal with surgery or no surgery!

[i have a VERY awake child at the moment]

This picture was of my family a little under a year ago (about 11 months ago) and everyone is wearing the same size clothing they did a year ago (yes part of that is this random BC weight but thats a whole different story).. I had expected a change by now and I just haven't been doing it.. its no ones fault but my own! I have all these ambitions but when push comes to shove they ALL fell apart and I REFUSE to allow this to happen.. next years photos WILL be different!!! I demand it for myself and for my family!!!

I feel so weighed down by the foods I've been eating lately so for the next 2 days (Thursday and Friday) I am eating nothing but fruits and veggies and I am drinking nothing but water in large doses!!! Hopefully then i can kick this birth control bloat enough to FINALLY retire the pair of pants I'm wearing in this picture!!!! I was out of them before the bloat set in so I technically DID lose weight in a year and down a pant size but its not enough!

I also want to get myself on a schedule schedule! I plan to buy a timer and have intervals of time that i get stuff done! Maybe if I have something moving me along it will make it easier to follow through!

Tomorrow's goal

Wake up at 8:30 (normally I wake up before this but to be out of bed and started my actual day at 8:30! ...so 30 minutes or so to put around and wake wake up!) and get fully dressed!!!

9 have Adalynn fed

9-9:30 cut up some fruit for a smoothie to enjoy at the 9:30 time frame

9:30-10:30 internet stuff (grandma nancy goes in for surgery prep tomorrow surgery on friday!)

10:30-11 dishes

11-12 catch up on anything that took longer then i expected and or free hour yay lol!

12-1 lunch

1 Adalynn down for nap, clean living room

so i know that looks pretty basic but i'm a zombie in the morning and by the time i look over its lunch and nap time and i haven't had a thing to eat and haven't done anything so i'm hoping with just getting this out there that i actually get it done! And I also tend to be more active when I wake up and put on my tennis shoes so thats my goal! As soon as i wake up get up and dressed!!!

[i love my giant fish!!!!]

This is what happens when your friends move away to a new Army post! They give you there body pillow because you are obsessed with!!! This guy i happen to call him Mr. Fooshie and YES in case you were wondering he IS a giant fish pillow! =)

On that note we had to say goodbye to a really really amazing friend today and I'm not exactly handling it! Plus with this whole birth control bloat I'm basically dying!!! It's 7:48pm and in 12 minutes after I was a few dishes I am passing out! Jeff is working tonight and overnight for the next week so I don't plan on getting my exercise bike time because I'm now actually needed at bath time but tomorrow I plan to walk 3000 steps according to my pediometer which is honestly about 1000 more then i normally do! So hopefully that makes up for my lack of biking! I also plan to do some shake weight.. i hate that thing but hey i'll take the looking ridiculous for my arms to tone up!

[catch a grenade for love]

Today was suppose to be 100% outside day.. well that didn't turn out exactly as planned... It was so nasty out full of rain and crud!!!! But did that stop us from going outside completely!? of course not!!!! We had ribs that needed BBQ'ed! .. yes we are THOSE type of people lol!!! I was looking forward to my ribs and YUMMMYYYY!!!! they literally melted in my mouth! oh so delicious!!! And with watermelon and potato salad!! Dinner could NOT have been any better!!!

But on a good note I also must tell you about the bad.. Tomorrow we say goodbye to a very dear friend as her and her family move to there new army post =( Tis the way of the army... I'm just not excited about having to say goodbye to not only 1 but 3 of my close friends within the next couple weeks! =(

Also I am here to blog about how I am so completely stuffed that i did not work out on my exercise bike tonight! There was no way with dinner and me medicated out that i would be able to do it today and this is an excuse but not an excuse.. i just can't push myself today.. with everything its just an off day! but i refuse to allow tomorrow to be another off day.. it doesn't work like that.. i'm not losing momentum i'm just reharnessing it for tomorrow!

[SERIOUSLY! it's a picture of ME!]

/gasp! A picture of mwah!? Si!!!! Occasionally I DO take pictures of myself! SHOCKER! I know =)

So today went okay.. my eye is KILLING me but i try not to complain about it that much because I feel like I'm a broken record!!!

AND *drum roll*

2.869 miles in

18 minutes 33 seconds

I still hate bath time.. isn't this suppose to get better?!

This kid makes my heart sing!!! I got my new headbands in the mail today =) The one she is wearing is black/hot pink and I also got a brown/white with a jewel on one (that i am currently sporting!) and a black/red one that look AMAZING!!!! And I got all 3 for 18 dollars shipped!!! Not too shabby =) I also got my replacement Zoya in Trixie in the mail today so in a few minutes I'm going to be rocking out to silver nail polish! =) I can't wait!!!

On a bad note though today we were suppose to go on a river boat cruise but unfortanently due to my eye issues we had to cancel so we gave our tickets to good friends of ours and I hope they enjoy an amazing evening out!!! While they were enjoying our places on the boat I was at hoping chopping up an onion for our stir fry dinner (that was delicious, thank you Jeff!!!) and it irritated my eye so badly in all of 30 seconds that I almost ended up hospitalized.. talk about RIDICULOUS amounts of drama over my stupid stupid eye! If you learn ANYTHING from this blog its that eyes are the worst thing known to man! okay.. i might be just a teensy bit dramatic with that statement but if i'm going to live my own personal soap opera i better make it worth the ratings =P

So we did some running around today and ended up at the grocery store buying things for monday's BBQ extravagansa!!!! .. Ribs! slow cooked all day on the grill!!! YUM! nothing better in the world then that!!! .. we also had to pick up some things that we had run out of to make our homemade bbq sauce.. yes we are HARDCORE BBQ'ers! anddddd yay red wine vinegar was on sale for 2 for 4 dollars instead of 3.59 a bottle! MEGA score! .. and then we got 4 cases of Dr. Pepper for 9 dollars instead of 2 for 9 which is the regular! another SCORE! We drink about 1 soda a day... scratch that I'd be lying if i said that.. NORMALLY I drink 1 soda a day but with my eye and me feeling like crap and needing sugary pick me ups because I have ABSOLUTELY ZERO appetite I drink more like 2 a day! which still is SO much better then the soda 24/7 that i WAS drinking a year ago! I tried going completely without and when I'm feeling good I frequently go 3 or 4 days without drinking one but I have to have them around for occasional special treats! and since i'm not a chocolate/sweet type person i think its a fair trade off as a "snack" as long as i treat it as a rare special treat!!!

So that gets me to the magical question.. did i or did i not stick with my workout day 2? YES I DID!!!! I was on the bike for 19:29 LONG minutes!!! at like :23 seconds I was DONE! but i kept going and BOY did i SWEAT! But I went for 2.791 miles! The WHOLE time I was just staring down the clock sweating my behind off and just prayer for Jeff to say those magic words "Wash your belly.. rub the soap on your belly" OH THANK YOU!!! then "close your eyes" I could have fainted in delight!!! I don't know if its the pain pill i took right before working out (due to the onion fiasco) or what but today i did sooooo much less but it was soooo more of a work out! sweat sweat sweat and a dying girl! ... but now that it's done and over with I feel a heck of a lot better =)

Day 2 SUCCESS!!!

Day 3 ???? Someone may need to help me get out of bed LOL!!!

[birthdays are always fun!]

Yesterday was my birthday and I am now 23 years OLD! It's official according to my amazing friends Sarah, Sam, and Carol Lyn that once you reach 23 you qualify as being old! Thanks ladies =)

In my new found oldness I have decided that by the time I am 25 I am going to be 150 pounds! Which gives me 2 years to lose 150 pounds! Doable? YES! I think it should take less time but I am wanting to make lifestyle changes and I'm worried that if i set to short a goal and fail again that I will just go back to old ways! So once again I'm starting up blogging.. yes i know i've been slacking and failing at this for as long as i can remember but this time its different.. its getting to difficult for me to move anymore and my dad is dying due to weight related things.. all these things combined plus 2 seperate weddings that I will be involved with are more then enough to really really activate my life!

So 2 years broken down

2 years = 75 pounds a year

24 months = 6.25 pounds a month

104 weeks = .69 pounds a week

Totally doable!

I plan to do my bicycle while Jeff is bathing Adalynn because I plan times for this and it ALWAYS without fails falls through! SO new time and Jeff is on board with it!! Today I went 5 miles in 32 minutes and 12 seconds and by mile 1 i was making excuses to stop and making excuses in my brain why tomorrow I shouldn't do it.. I HATE that I'm constantly making excuses but I kept telling myself as long as Jeff and Adalynn are getting there bath on I WILL be on this bike even if I kill myself in the process!!! And i told Jeff I plan to do it every day!!! Whether its a quick bath because its running late or one of her hour long baths I will NOT stop until they are in the bedroom ready for me to brush her hair! ... Heaven help me because this is going to SUCK!