[on fire!!!]

My arm is KILLING me!!! I have 2 lidocaine patches on right now and I think tonight I'm going to put a few more on!!!

If that wasn't enough my stomach is sooooooooo painful!!! By my belly button incision it is like a swollen golf ball and below my belly button it's like a solid line of red from it being pulled on.... I bet if I was moving more it would be better but it hurts so badly to move sooooo I'm in a catch 22! 

I am also sooooo hot and freezing at the same time.... It is so difficult!!' I currently have the window open (at 30 degrees outside) with a blanket on half of me and literally going from sweating to shivering constantly!!!! Ahhhh I hate this

[new rings]

My wedding rings are flying off my fingers! It's so great and so crappy at all once because I need new ones but I don't want to buy inbetween rings and then getting them and then being too big before I even get them! Ahhhhhhh!!! But since the ones I wear right now are super cheap there isn't a reason to get them resized! Eventually I'll get new new wedding bands that my husband will help me pick out... But that isn't for a few more years! 

[bleeding my life away]

I'm pmsing like a crazy woman!!! I'm hoping I stop soon because this is ridiculous!!!! I am so hormonal to begin with because of the rapid weight loss but to add in PMSing and I'm a rapid animal LOL!! 

I am getting really sick of making my family dinner.... I mean... Jeff was home today and even volunteered to cook... Did he? Nay! He played on his computer while I did the cooking... Just another day in the life of me!

I am trying so hard not to snap at my husband for every little thing by it is so hard when he goes and pulls this crap... Yet I'm suppose to be all happy go lucky and act like it doesn't matter... But it does

[ready...]

I am sooooo ready for Monday!!! Bring on the scrambled eggs!!! That's all I have to update today is that I'm ready LOL!!

Here is a few old pictures which are 5 days difference 

{absense of weighing in}

I weighed again today of course and i'm done .6 lbs... I just need to stop weighing myself because I feel like i'm watching a pot of water to boil waiting to be under 300 lbs... just 4.1 more pounds

I can't keep doing this to myself... sooooo October 10th is my day!