[to be or not to be...]

So I am pretty sure I am just in denial at this point either i'm pregnant or have diabetes! with the way I am so ungodly swollen it has to be one or the other unless I really am just to chunky that it will start to come down.. either way i'm not going to the doctor so don't tell me to because i'm not gonna listen! If I'm pregnant I'm having a baby and if I'm diabetic its from being fat so either way i'll be losing some weight and play it by ear! I need to be in denial until after Jeff gets back from training because i just don't have time to deal with it because both are life changing things and i know that! But at this point sorry I'm just busy busy busy!!!! but i wanted to put it out there somewhere in the universe so when i think about it i can look back and say okay on september 23rd she made a comment about it! and my real comment about it is "Ugh my boob hurt today for the first time!!!! "